from the night Do not want to go home to family focus on

Many relatives and friends , the students met me, have wondered why I would believe in Christ. Frankly speaking , 2003 years ago , if someone said I would become a Christian , faith in Jesus Christ , I do not believe . Because I can not accept any religion. was does not believe that there God , down I believe people have to rely on their own efforts to overcome all adversity. I think that 's good or bad according to his good behavior and accomplishments comments . The success size to depends on his have adequate qualifications knowledge of and whether they could earn enough the wealth.


married After more than a wife is , but life 's goal is not to change or every day knowing only work the accumulation of wealth . After work Whim to do what he wanted . Because of personalities and ways of doing things the different , in many things cognitive had a great gap , disputes have expected , our love will follow gradually disappeared!


born First child after the life is so , have a second child after the life or so. Originally, we also have a third child, but because there is no love relationship we have given up the child.


At the time I really was just too proud , and does not know give up a child it warned me that marriage is a problem, but continue to live self-centered day. every day came home late , sometimes the work 's sake , sometimes Colleagues or friends linger hotel. At that time after work to the other side is good, just do not want to go home.



At that time wife my is very unhappy , but she the corresponding way made me and do not want with her to communicate to continue to to more apathy respond . was I in heart not very annoying her , but do not know what she was thinking , she what is ? I do not have provided you need to you yet? I treated you the way than me Many friends and his wife to you?


God First, changed my wife , she married the first 7 years back to the church , and later joined von sister the group . I have a feeling she was I respond way not quite the same , but I still heart was hardened, for her tender not much feelings and no response.


This took another 6-7 years until 2002 May , my country, two children is a problem, this thing makes me very sad because my children have always been good proud of the baby . We spent six months tried all kinds of nothing, have can not help this child. The pressure of work with the child 's inability to defeat me. The first time I felt carrying the burden of desperation . all the way Almost to be sealed, so I'm the verge of collapse .


January 2003 , the first soft-hearted down, listen to his wife the views of to the Campus Crusade for Christ 's marriage program.


After several classes , I heard the past have never heard of the teachings of , but also listen to our problems lie . Child's problem reflects the family problems . home The problem lies in the spiritual of the first out of the question. I stress God entrusted to him by the work , let Satan attack my family.


As the course progressed, God the truth of little by little into my heart , my heart is getting soft. In by the end of March 2003 the course , I the teacher under the guidance of bow to if the tears do decision for pray to Christ, Jesus sincere to repent and that obedience to the Lord 's will.


Believe the main after the of my life focus family, no longer work. Now I am a "God first, wife child second , work third . " God is faithful , He does not for me to work put in third and short of his the glory , thank God He gave me far I seek more than . Gradually, my wife and I the relationship between improved a lot , and I can understand her language .


of marriage after the course God led I went to Campus Crusade for Christ Brethren , we every Thursday night have fixed gatherings, worship of God , physically sharing, prayer. I from this far away from a lot of drink friends, but I do not feel alone. I know how to draw near to God , I know there are brothers and can transport, I know trouble there was a servant of God will at any moment help me.


today to Here for God witness , really want to thank God for my salvation and grace , this is my personal of failure testimony , but also my to re- win testimony , where to tell the past things are not glorious , because it does Takes courage , but fortunately I understand it all do not for themselves , and are for God's sake , so when Lee Brother asked me to witness , I will readily accept.


of marriage today Has seventeen years , in retrospect it over a decade is really very hard , particularly over the past three years to really like through that the shadow of death the valley of generally , if not relying on God, my wife and I must go , but come. Thank God for my " pruning " , because I know he is to me long more robust and more life.